I am going to be upfront in my review and not try and play it off that this has a paranormal aspects to it. The heroine in this suffers from psychosis – she thinks she sees her dead boyfriend and that she needs to help him cross over. Of course what really needs to happen is she needs to face what happened and let him go.
There are three main players in this book. Holden and Tyler Marks who are brothers and Sam Wintry, who they have known and lived next to since she was born. They grew up very close. Sam and Holden were the shyer artsy types where Tyler was the athlete and planned to follow in his father footsteps to become a lawyer. Sam had always had a crush on Holden but for circumstances Sam knew nothing about he pushed her away when she finally got the courage to tell him. From that point on her and Tyler cross the friendship line into a relationship and were planning on getting married before he was killed by a hit and run driver. Sam not able to handle his death had a mental breakdown but in her eyes it was everyone else that didn’t understand that Tyler was still there.
We knew one of Holden’s reason from walking away from Sam was he knew he brother was in love with her and his whole life he done nothing but try and protect his brother from first his father’s fist then another tragic accident. He knows Sam hates him but it breaks his heart to see her so broken now. When he sees that she is going to go on the cross-country trip that she and Tyler had always planned on her own he puts his issues aside to go with her to keep her safe.
What neither of these two expected to happen on this trip is for their wounds to be ripped open which in turn finally causes the long needed healing of both of them to begin and for them both to realize that something that started a very long time ago was always meant to be.
Along with the present this book has a lot of flashbacks which are needed to really explain how everyone ended up where they are today. In doing that it felt like Tyler was a big part of the book even though he was dead when the book started. These three people suffered so much in their short lives. I really enjoyed this book and plan to read the rest in the series.
Harsh look at the world of addiction and how guilt and shame always run hand and hand with it. Both main characters have lost someone they loved while they were high. The situations were different, one has now been sober a year but never dealt with the grief and chooses to continually punish himself while the other is fresh in her grief but also not dealing with it which just leads her back to old habits.
We met “biker” Melody Lachlan in the first book. She and her best friend were hard partiers but Mel was there for Sam when she really needed a friend. See that’s that Mel does – she takes care of other people. She’s been taking care of her best friend Darla since grade school. The two were inseparable and lived their lives on Mel’s bike roaming from town to town. Mel never thought twice about the amount of drugs she was doing.. She knew she wasn’t an addict.. Then tragedy strikes and Mel is left to face a harsh reality. Not only does she lose her best friend and the guilt of the part she played in that but she has to face that maybe she isn’t as put together as she thinks. Her probation requires her to do a 20 day stint in rehab where she doesn’t think she belongs but between some of the things the counselors say that manage to get through her thick skull and meeting a man who comes every week to tell his story over and over she starts to realize that the only life she’s ever known – being part of a MC club and under the protection of it because of her father – may not have been the best influence.
As a reader you know Melody is a hard core addict as the author lets us see her in full using mode. It’s a horrible disease and tricks you into doing and believing things you know you shouldn’t do. Its also a crutch to not have to face reality. One of the other things I applaud the author for showing is that even though Boone has been sober a year and was talking the talk he wasn’t walking the walk. He traded his sobriety for underground fighting which was an outlet for his anger and rage. Even though it might have looked like he was on the straight and narrow he was just as messed up today as he was when he was using because he refused to deal with his grief – he chose to just punish himself instead.
This book was full of so many harsh realities that at times its almost painful to read and even when your ¾’s into the book and think things can only get better for these two your heart is kinda ripped out again. No worries though there is a HEA but boy did these two have to work for it once they finally decided to start dealing with their grief.